eunjin in SOUTH KOREA: [Part 2] 073. It's all about the perception, isn't it?

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

[Part 2] 073. It's all about the perception, isn't it?

I see myself in you and you see yourself in me; but our situations are different. I wish you all the best! I want to help you but I don't know how I can help.
I don't even know how to help myself. Maybe it's all about the perception, maybe it's just a phase that I'll get over in no time.
Maybe things will work out fine for both of us or one of us or none of us.
But this is really distracting me! I almost screwed things up yesterday which explains why I had to sit in the Democracy Square alone to do some self-reflection, almost like 闭门思过.

And there is this Chinese guy in my International Financial Management class who resembles my 전 남친 ㅠㅠ...reminding me of all the wrongdoings I committed to the latter for nearly 8 months and what I'm going through now. It's karma.

I know my mum really well. When I didn't see her online for 3 days, I knew something was up and I had to call her just now to make sure things were alright. She was angry with me because I didn't go online on Sat and Sun. My poor brother is down with fever in OCS and there are only 2 JC guys in the whole batch. The rest are from poly. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against people from poly just that my brother can't quite fit in with them and it doesn't help that his roommate is a smoker. Poor brother!

I'm beginning to miss home a little now but I don't want to leave too. How contradictory. When I was jogging just now, I had a nice view of the Anam area and I could even see Namsan Tower. And I was just thinking to myself...what I see right in front of my eyes now will be different in a few months' time. I only have about 2 months+ left here and soon, I'll be starting the countdown and leaving in no time. I don't want to have any regrets while I'm still here and that's why I'm so troubled. But there's only so much others can help me with. The rest is up to me. The ball is in my hands just that I don't know what I should do. Hold on to it, hide it, let it bounce away or try shooting it into the hoop?

Dinner with Jeannie, Kenneth, Yuya and Raus was GREAT. Chicken briyani for 8,500KRW at Otsal Indian Restaurant...delicious! The evening was spent at Da Vinci Coffee Cafe where we "studied" from 8pm till 1.30am when the cafe closed before moving to McDonalds for a nugget set meal to appease our hungry stomachs. My night ended at 4am. Gosh...Jeannie's screwing up my body clock!