[Part 2] 126. Heavy heart for a multitude of reasons.

What if I don't want to say goodbye?

But the truth is that I have to and I should start bracing myself for it.

I just read a friend's blog and I feel sad all over again. How things are going to be "one of the last few times" these days saddens me. Just 2 more weeks of school and then it's farewell to many people and another 3 weeks on my own with Jeannie and Phyllis and then it's farewell to Korea. These friendships and relationships forged in 5 months, I'll never forget, for the rest of my life.
Also, I shouldn't scrimp on my last few weeks here because I want to do what I've always wanted to do. If only I know of a quick and fast way to make money (legally)!

Maybe I'm just PMSing, and maybe I'm not at all. But I feel quite depressed these days and I've been thinking about the current state of things. Maybe that's why I'm turning to ice cream almost everyday as a source of comfort...emotional eating at the risk of growing sideways. Seeking solace in sugar. I had a slice of chocolate moouse cake in Soul Kitchen Coffee yesterday after dinner.  Today, it was German Chocolate ice cream at Coldstone Creamery. I wonder what's up for tomorrow.
Jeannie's right. By doing what I did, I made myself vulnerable and not knowing what will happen over the next few months, perhaps, it's only right if I start taking a back seat and learning to retreat to protect myself. But I mean, I set myself up for all these when I took the initiative so there's a price to pay and I should just face it.  But I lack the courage to do so :(

And after reading another blog, I feel sadder than ever, knowing what I've done to someone then and now even though we're not contacting each other anymore. I know you're reading this: I didn't throw both items away. In fact, I brought them both to Korea with me to remind me of you and to remind me of what I've done and what I should never do again. The things I did to you, they'll haunt me for life. I know I'll get my retribution. Because it's karma. And I would rather you hate me.

Somehow, I've been sleeping more and more these days. Just the other day, I woke up at 12pm and today, 11am. I rarely do this, waking up between 7.30-9pm usually. But these days...

I spent the afternoon working on my Consumer Behaviour PPT, dropping by school for a 2 hours meeting with Jinsung and Yuhong, but there was no internet in school because they changed the system and I didn't know how to use it.  We had BBQ for dinner and totally stank after that. A German chocolate ice cream at Coldstone Creamery later, we headed to Soul Kitchen Coffee to study before I came back to blog and yes, to resume work on the PPT. Yuhong, you better drink the 3 packets of yuza tea I gave you and make sure you're alright and can present on Tuesday. I don't want to present!!!!!!!!!!

Yuhong trying to keep his charger plug plugged in while doing his work @ Soul Kitchen Coffee...